♥, c

i realised sometymes you just wanna be independent;
sometymes youre just too afraid to give in your best shot simply because ure so afraid of falling if it fails. i am so loosing myself but ive never regretted putting everything on the line.
; i hope one day we will have this new coat of paint that doesnt have any cracks at all.
thing is i tear all the tyme and i hate how weak i am. and i noe you prolly hate it as well. i hate how fragile my heart it.

;waiting for a cab all alone at midnyte feels so fucking lonely and scary for the first tyme.
for the first tyme i felt liek a lost kid and i know i shoundnt be this spoilt.
but i really wished he had offered to be there. but i guess we are 2 realllly different individuals that have totally diffferent ideologies.
but at the end of the day, i just want us to work out because i know i really love you.

relationship and work; i swear for the first tyme in my life i really feel liek im seriously breaking down.
*** but i am awefully thankful that he came to stay the other night, it really truly made my heart smile. and i just knew im nort prepared to give him up ever again.