everything.

im blogging via my iphone and it just really brings back so much memories.
i miss zouk. onepointfive years there really did etched something into my
goldfish-alik brain. hurhur.
guess its just one of those days that u just reminise about the good ol
CAREFREE days.
;was at arena ytd with the mbs ppl! it was such an eyeopener, but sadly
nt in a good way. u noe hw liek u see things and u start reflecting
on ure life and everything? i am overwhelmed and just speechless. but if jt
ever reads this, i wan him to know that hes truly the only one i wanna be on that dancefloor with.
;u noe hw things dun go the way u plan so hard for it sometymes,
but with jt, it just feels so right, even if it aint hw it was supp
to be. i wanna be with u forever.

;1800 arrivals, fucking depressing.

i realised sometymes you just wanna be independent;
sometymes youre just too afraid to give in your best shot simply because ure so afraid of falling if it fails. i am so loosing myself but ive never regretted putting everything on the line.
; i hope one day we will have this new coat of paint that doesnt have any cracks at all.
thing is i tear all the tyme and i hate how weak i am. and i noe you prolly hate it as well. i hate how fragile my heart it.

;waiting for a cab all alone at midnyte feels so fucking lonely and scary for the first tyme.
for the first tyme i felt liek a lost kid and i know i shoundnt be this spoilt.
but i really wished he had offered to be there. but i guess we are 2 realllly different individuals that have totally diffferent ideologies.
but at the end of the day, i just want us to work out because i know i really love you.

relationship and work; i swear for the first tyme in my life i really feel liek im seriously breaking down.
*** but i am awefully thankful that he came to stay the other night, it really truly made my heart smile. and i just knew im nort prepared to give him up ever again.

him.

i feel very hurt sometymes.
;and this hurt in my heart is sth i never really felt before//
you know the kind that makes you tear uncontrollably and nothing just makes it better.
i tink its because i truly love you. liek how i tink you're the one il be there for anytyme.
thing is im nort afraid to love, nort afraid of the hurt.
; just dunwan to be taken for granted, just dunwan all this tears to end with just a fullstop and end of story. cox ive alwaes believed that we are made to be more than that.
is this kharma? liek how it comes back to you on wurt you did to someone else?

you dun liek to talk about how you feel, wurt you tink and you dun liek to be asked too.
i might just be thinking too much sometymes, but i'l never know.
at the end of the day, i just wanna know am i a part of you.