the front office.

today is by far the craziest day ever since i came onboard the marinabaysands family. we were running at a thousand and one percent instead of the normal 90 ++ % that all hotels are handling. its so unbelievable that even with 40 check in counters, we are constantly having long queues at the counter. and wurts worst is that we had no rooms and its kinda sad when the guest walks away dissppointed in you and the hotel. but wells, its the first day that most departments are handling checkouts, so i guess its normal. i just pray that april 27 would be fantastic and that we can show the world wurt we have gort here at marinabaysands.

;well, but conquering this together with my fellow agents and managers did made me feel so relieved that i chose to be part of them. i see sucha strong bond between all of us and indeed, i never really felt any dissappointment in my managers. they lead well, they do.

and im really proud of them for being there for us agents all the tyme. they might nort have been perfect but they neve once gave up trying and helping us.

i tink i was really touched by how some reallyy helped me today. it made me teared silently in my heart cox i was reallyyyy very grateful for all that they've put in for us.

go front office! i see us moving together a longg way.

and of cox, i hope things stays this way.

;and on a personal note, i miss jt.

sometymes i wish we were both just holding office jobs whereby we'll have no trouble having at least dinner together anytyme of the week.

but ohwells, absence makes the heart fonder. i guess?

reality.

we are so close to opening, and i swear im so glad that im nort feeling the least nervous at all.
i cant decipher myself sometymes. whie do i feel so gawd darn nervous when we're in training and yet nort feel anything when we're running live! i am getting the hang of it and im glad i did. i cant wait to make my first special guest touch and i cant wait to feel that motivation that my guest would give me. seriously, i cant wait to feel how i was feeling at the ritz. cox the guest there, they are fantabulous.they make you feel so special deep dwn and that the journey was worth it all.
;and frankly you need all those motivation cox this journey is definately nort one dats smooth sailing. everyone sees only the glamourous side of the job and thinks they've seen the world.


ohwells, sometymes i feel liek a kid. i need someone to still tell me that everythings gonna be alryte, a hug and a peck on the forehead, and i need someone to just ask how my day was and listen  to me. but life and work seem to be so hectic for me and jt. and off days seem to only start in the evening cox both of us dun have similar work hours. i feel so lonely sometymes.
and tymes liek these, im glad ive gort such an awesome family.

work and work and more work.

its so appalling how my life is changing at such an alarming rate; im struggling to keep up with the huge change in my life ryte nw. the pace is simply too fast and sometymes i cant help but feel its suffocating.
still, i noe its part and parcel. i cant be a student relying on my parents allowances forever.
yea, but i cant help but miss it. miss the life where i can have the freedom of choice.
BUT thank gawd ive made frens that i can bear my heart to and know they will be there for me if i were to break down at work.
somehow, the pressure IS there and the amount of responsibility that we shoulder is nt something ive ever handled before.
its not easy trying to psycho ureself to think that everythings gonna be alryte, cox no one noes you better dan you ureself. the convincing part feels liek the deceiving end of it.
still, i hope my passion in this line goes a long way. and i really realllly aspire to be someone as great as mr. LV. (: i will miss the vegas team but im really proud to be marinabaysands. cox i believe in it. (:

"Sometimes you just need someone. Someone to make you smile when you’re sad, to tell you you’re beautiful. Someone to look forward to seeing you everyday Someone to call you every night just to say I love you and mean it"

things you'll prolly never know.

sometymes the stuff i face at work just makes me loose so much confidence.
i am nort sure if i am the charmaine i once knew. i know ive gort soo much passion for this line of work. but  i feel so pressurized everyday, and theres always this certain fear of failure. and its something that goes in a vicious cycle. when i stand up there, i just feel that i cant do it.
i wish i can just share all these and bear my hearts out. but everyone thats close to me is just way too busy and i just feel so insignificant, so useless, so lonely sometymes.
i hope its because im just trying to adapt to this whole new change in my life.
i really miss the old me and i miss how i can always bear my heart to jt. its really so hard to even get 10min out of his work now and he's prolly too tired after work. i am soo breaking apart and i just really do miss my life.

they say success is defined by the ability to move from one failure to the next. i am trying very very hard now.