reality.

we are so close to opening, and i swear im so glad that im nort feeling the least nervous at all.
i cant decipher myself sometymes. whie do i feel so gawd darn nervous when we're in training and yet nort feel anything when we're running live! i am getting the hang of it and im glad i did. i cant wait to make my first special guest touch and i cant wait to feel that motivation that my guest would give me. seriously, i cant wait to feel how i was feeling at the ritz. cox the guest there, they are fantabulous.they make you feel so special deep dwn and that the journey was worth it all.
;and frankly you need all those motivation cox this journey is definately nort one dats smooth sailing. everyone sees only the glamourous side of the job and thinks they've seen the world.


ohwells, sometymes i feel liek a kid. i need someone to still tell me that everythings gonna be alryte, a hug and a peck on the forehead, and i need someone to just ask how my day was and listen  to me. but life and work seem to be so hectic for me and jt. and off days seem to only start in the evening cox both of us dun have similar work hours. i feel so lonely sometymes.
and tymes liek these, im glad ive gort such an awesome family.