you noe this is love.

it sark so much being sick.
aching limbs, throbbing headaches,endless coughing and the fact that it feels hot all the tyme doesnt make anything better.
ive been surviving on bread porridge and water water and more water.

; but the sweetest thang pop by my crib with my favourite caeser salad. i swear hes the best salad maker ever! thank you baby, ure soo much love. ure the best medicine ever.

appreciate every single day of your life, even if its the usual routine, cox you'll neve noe when things will just make a turn; and those unappreciated norms will just be sth u yearn for so much.
humans are just creatures made to regret. hurhur. still, life goes on and we'll start sailing our boats again, lsing sight of the oh so familiar shore once again.

blue skies.

apart from the huge variety of cny goodies, red packets floating around the house and the immense amount of tangerines at home, the hype for cny this year definately wasnt as much as the previous years. maybe its because im older now or maybe ive been working all thru cny or maybe there was just too much going on in my mind. this mth is one with drastic ups and dwns; tearful nights, endless misunderstandings and disagreements. everything just felt so wrong and the lack of confidence is starting to surfice again.
well, i guess when the thing is within ure reach, you'll never find the need or drive to fight for it. right?
nonetheless, the suprise we both had at the end of the day was the sweetest, ever.
i have been smiling into blank space at the mere thought of it.
i am fucking happy.
;and i just hope that there'll alwaes be blue skies after any thunderstorm, cox this is by far the first few tymes im so sure of wurt i want.

i am proud that i am a better person now.
but i cant deny that there are tymes that im just too weak to stay firm to my beliefs.
i tink i have split personality sometymes. damn.

HATE.

its alwaes easy to say, but when you are placed in the situation, its almost impossible to act upon it liek how you've alwaes preached, liek hw you'd so proudly say its gona be liek this and its gorrta be liek that. but nonetheless, i believe it alwaes rewarding to do so(: just as to alwaes remember that love can be presented in many ways, nort just the way you think its suppossed to be, that it ought to be.

today i came across something a part of me wished i dint have to. but i guess it didnt matter anymore. of course it left its scar, and affected my life a whole lot. but point is, im still standing strong today and ive gort jt in my life now. but somehow, i cant deny that knowing the truth still hurts aleetle. but im glad theres kinda liek a full stop, a closure to all this drama that once messed up fucked up my life.
its nort about the process of my ultimate heartbreaking moment, nor isit about how much i regretted my choice. but its about how i changed my mind about happilyeverafters, how i just cannot put my heart on the line to believe in it again.
i hate you, fucker.

go figure.

i hate nort being able to appreciate certain things in life. they say you learn from experience, but whie am i still nort learning.i hate this part of me and i wish i could be better. well, the only way i could ever bring my head up and consol myself would be that no humans are perfect. but on the contrary, i'd really rather choose to be lacking in other ways dan this.
people might see the bitch in me, but frankly, i am suffering no less.

;and i am not near the verge of breaking down or wurtsoever, im just figuring out.

life.

yoghurt,yummy toppings plus the one holding the cup totally made my day(:
;and il never forget how the first yamiyoghurt outing started.
THANK YOU.

seeing 2 familiar faces today made my heart smile.
its so heartwarming to be able to see and talk to my gurls physically.
nothing beats having the ones you know that understands you inside out, beside you.
i am proud to say im starting to appreciate simpler things in life and im glad i do; when many out there might just be wishing so badly to be in ure position, leading ure so called monotonous life that you dun look forward to at all.

so kc, if ure reading this, embrace wurt you have now. its nort the end of the world. u noe you have many who cares about you(: dun regret how much tyme and opportunities you wasted becox of wurt happen. look forward in life. you noe how much i alwaes admire you. dun make me dissappointed. HAHA.

trust.

still, being skeptical about things are largely due to memories of hauting bad experiences. i just gortta take the risk and put my cents worth out there. i noe i should; but can i?
i wanna learn to trust.

on another note, s is back(: i smell awesomeee catch up tyme.



regardless of all the dramas that might be going on in the day, ure still the one i think of everynyte(: